cant find the answer of what I supposed to do in the near future

It 15 mn to 10 am, I am at the Nursing school, translating for a pediatric nurse with the senior students. Today is august 17 and it almost two months that I am back to Haiti. I miss all my friends in Madison, my dear friends the Dopf's family that I will never forget and my friend in Minneapolis. I remember my plan before I came back to Haiti, everything I wanted to do, with my nursing experience, with my new experience with God. I still don’t know why, I am here, not working and not helping at all. Sometime like I always said: it hard to understand God's desire for you. I am praying God everyday to ask him. what He wants me to do?
Sometimes it makes me so sad to see how I spend my time in Haiti. Life as a Haitian is a dilemma. I will never surrender at all. The earthquake has changed many lives, also mine. I will never go back to my first life. I will never still quit in my bed in Léogâne, I will never have my cloths in my nice closet. The tent will be my home for a period of time I don’t know. Any way I am not the only victims of this living condition. Mine might be a lot better than others.
Days after days I am asking God what I supposed to do, cause I want to be active not staying as a lazy man. I want to work or create or change or promote. No one is thinking for me here In Haiti. Only God will give me the answer. I don’t know for how much I will work or where or in what condition but I just want to use my time by doing something positive.
God is giving me a passion now for Medicine; I really like the idea of being a surgeon. And that is not impossible. If it God desire its will be a lot more easy for me to apply for medical school and then become a surgeon and be more helpful for my community. I don’t know what to do or where to go or who to talk to, but I am talking with you, you who know who I am , where IO am from , and what I can do and who I was before and who I will be. God, I am talking to you now please here is my prayer:
“Like a son talking to his father I am comfortable to talk to you my God
You who know when I am sad, when I am weak and when I am lost. Please help me find the answer of what is waiting for me. I am a little afraid for myself, my future and my dream.
You have the keys of my life the keys which can open the book of success. I relay on you my father.
My prayers and my through are for you and to you. Love You God amen »

I am Back

Today I am happy that i can write something on my Blog. It's tuesday august 4th, 17 days from now will be my 2nd months back to Haiti. I have' nt up date my blog since a long time. the internet is pretty a big deal here must the time.
So I am good, have a lot to say and to do.
i am in Port au prince this week. i am working on a project with a group. we went to Cange yesterday, visiting Paul Farmer's foundation," zanmi la sante", It a great foundation. I met the medical Director, Dr. Joesil. I read the book " mountain behind mountain" so it was good to see what they are doing.
I have news about Leogane. The health care system it s not going very good. The field hospital is nt working any moree they closed it last saturday. now the Doctors without borders are the only hospital in leogane. hospital Saint Croix is working on reopen very soon.
I am working on finding a way to update my blog one time a week at least.
God is still by my side. I want you to pray for me that God can help me to find a job. i am thinking on apply for more than nursing soon. but still need to pray about it.
I am sorry that i9 am so short I will post more soon.