It 15 mn to 10 am, I am at the Nursing school, translating for a pediatric nurse with the senior students. Today is august 17 and it almost two months that I am back to Haiti. I miss all my friends in Madison, my dear friends the Dopf's family that I will never forget and my friend in Minneapolis. I remember my plan before I came back to Haiti, everything I wanted to do, with my nursing experience, with my new experience with God. I still don’t know why, I am here, not working and not helping at all. Sometime like I always said: it hard to understand God's desire for you. I am praying God everyday to ask him. what He wants me to do?
Sometimes it makes me so sad to see how I spend my time in Haiti. Life as a Haitian is a dilemma. I will never surrender at all. The earthquake has changed many lives, also mine. I will never go back to my first life. I will never still quit in my bed in Léogâne, I will never have my cloths in my nice closet. The tent will be my home for a period of time I don’t know. Any way I am not the only victims of this living condition. Mine might be a lot better than others.
Days after days I am asking God what I supposed to do, cause I want to be active not staying as a lazy man. I want to work or create or change or promote. No one is thinking for me here In Haiti. Only God will give me the answer. I don’t know for how much I will work or where or in what condition but I just want to use my time by doing something positive.
God is giving me a passion now for Medicine; I really like the idea of being a surgeon. And that is not impossible. If it God desire its will be a lot more easy for me to apply for medical school and then become a surgeon and be more helpful for my community. I don’t know what to do or where to go or who to talk to, but I am talking with you, you who know who I am , where IO am from , and what I can do and who I was before and who I will be. God, I am talking to you now please here is my prayer:
“Like a son talking to his father I am comfortable to talk to you my God
You who know when I am sad, when I am weak and when I am lost. Please help me find the answer of what is waiting for me. I am a little afraid for myself, my future and my dream.
You have the keys of my life the keys which can open the book of success. I relay on you my father.
My prayers and my through are for you and to you. Love You God amen »
We are praying for you Rigan! Be strong and keep talking to God believing that he will answer all the questions that you have. I know it is hard to wait, God's timing does not always line up with our timing. We experience the waiting too. We believe that you will find the answers and that you can be strong waiting! We love you!
ReplyDeleteDan and Jamie
"If leaders are filled with high ambition and if they pursue their aims with audacity and strength of will, they will reach them in spite of all obstacles" Carl von Clausewitz
ReplyDeleteI read this last night before sleeping and thought of you. I know you can do whatever you set your mind to. If med school is your dream- you can do it.
Love you
Rigan, there have been times in my life when I felt that I was going no where. Almost like the "pause" button for my life had been clicked.
ReplyDeleteLooking back, I can see God's hand and timing in some things. For others, I know I simply have to trust. But I know the character of God. I know He never changes. I know He has a plan and purpose for you. And I know that in His eyes, nothing is waster...not even this time of waiting.
I am praying for you, dear brother.
Christy
You are on the correct path my friend, by putting your faith in God. Keep FOLLOWING His plan for you. Have faith and do not be afraid--Those who follow Him, and believe in his Son, will have a special place here on earth and then in Heaven.
ReplyDeleteYou are very inspiring and your latest blog has helped me in my life today!! Thanks, Rigan ( I miss the Dopfs also!!) Rick Dann
God is working in your life right now Rigan. He is teaching you how to go to Him and depend on him. You can do anything through Christ who gives you the strength. Continue to look to Him. Don't get discouraged. You are his son and he loves you. He is walking with you. Focus on that and I KNOW He will show you where to go next and what to do. Praying for you always. I miss you so much!
ReplyDelete{I really feel likt God just told me to tell you to read Psalm 27, but the last verse (verse 14)says, "Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart (don't give up) and wait for the Lord."}